Red Wristband

So yesterday I woke up at 4:00am, put myself together, grabbed some granola bars, and drove down to the Delta Center (I refuse to call it Energy Solutions Arena) to stand in line for my wristband for American Idol season 8. I met a few new friends in line and found ways of entertaining myself during the 3 hour wait before anything happened. At around 8:00am the line started moving and I had my red wristband by 10:00am. It's a simple little paper wristband with the American Idol logo on it but it represents much more to me than that. I am finally putting myself out there and showing people what I can do. I'm stepping out from my singing closet and pursuing something much bigger than myself. I am proving alot to myself by wearing this wristband and going again at 5:00am Tuesday morning to sing in front of producers and possibly Randy, Paula, and Simon. Honestly, I don't care what they say in the end, I just want this experience and the chance to say I tried. We will see how it all unfolds but I'm just excited for now. I have to admit, this red wristband is hard not to look at every five seconds...It's the constant reminder of what tomorrow has in store...and I couldn't be more stoked.


Everyone pray extra hard for me tonight!!! I'm gonna need my nerves to be calm and I know the only person that can help me with that is the big man upstairs.

Soap.Opera

I am officially homeless as of last weekend when my dad kicked me out of his house. My life should be filmed because there is always something new and I'm always in the middle of big changes. I think it would get pretty good ratings. Anyways, It all started when I locked my keys in my car on a Thursday night and I didn't even realize it until Friday morning before I had to go to work. I was panicking because I didn't want to be late and my dad was on vacation with his phone turned off so I had no way of asking him if I could take one of his two cars to work. I guess I made a poor decision by taking the spare key to the 98' Saab that he keeps in the garage and driving it to work because the next thing I knew he was calling my office yelling at me over the phone about taking his car. He told me I should have called a cab or called my friend Hillary who lives in West Valley....
So, basically he told me that if I couldn't respect his things and Kevin (his live-in ex boyfriend) while he was on vacation then I needed to leave. I started crying at work and my boss told me to go home early so I could get things figured out. When I got home I called a locksmith (setting me back 70 bucks), packed all my things, and left. My friend Chandler offered to let me stay with her for awhile so that's where all my boxes are. I have yet to get a bed or any bedroom furniture but I'll just try to save my pennies and get it all with time. My dad is still on a cruise somewhere and I'm not looking forward to him coming back to SLC. There is gonna be a big guilt trip comin' I just know it. I honestly can't stand being around him when he is with Kevin so I'm glad he kicked me out. Luckily I still have my job and my singing that keeps me waking up everyday. My two friends Hillary and Chandler have been such a HUGE support and have helped me pack, unpack, and most of all let me cry on their shoulders. They really are great friends.
American Idol try-outs are next Tuesday so everyone pray for me and wish me luck! I've been working really hard to prepare as best as I can so we will see if I make it this year. My life truely is a soap opera...

Last Night

Hillary and I went to the first of two performances of the American Idols LIVE tour last night. We had a suite VERY close to the stage. To say the least the night was bitter sweet. I think we both would have enjoyed it more if we weren't so in love with Jason Castro and David Cook. We both cried....alot....hahaha. The show was AMAZING, and everyone did a great job. They have all improved tremedously since the show and it was fun to see them dance and actually perform full versions of songs from the show and songs they love. My favorites last night besides David and Jason were Micheal Johns, Carly S., and David A.
I don't think i've ever heard a louder crowd than when David A. hit the stage singing Robbie Williams' "Angels". You couldn't even hear the kid sing because the crowd was so excited to see him. Archie sang 4 songs and could barely finish his last one because he was crying. While he was singing Josh Grobans "When you say you love me" he kept rubbing his eyes and brushing the tears off his cheeks. After he was finished performing he thanked everyone a million times over for everything and said, "Now look at what you made me do!" because he stared crying again. I was so touched and I know he was too.
David Cook followed Archie by saying "How do I follow that guy?". But sure enough he did and his performance was by far the best one man show i've ever seen. He kept the crowd involved and kept making comments about how it was the loudest arena he'd ever been in. I'm pretty sure we made eye contact but I'm crossing my fingers that tonight Hillary and I will get back stage. We have closer seats tonight and The E Center events director is doing everything she can to get us backstage passes. Her name is Julie and she is the one that got us such great seats for both performances. We owe her alot even if we don't get backstage tonight.
Anyways, we are going tonight at 7 to see our boys and this time I think we will be a little more composed. Once we get backstage all that is left is just to set a wedding date for me and David. :)

Gettin Closer!

Everyday it get's closer and closer....try-out's for American Idol are on the 29th of July. I am preparing as best as I possibly can this month. Today is my first vocal strengthening class at 6pm-8pm. It's a four week class that is suppose to bust a move on your vocal strength and make a huge difference in the way you sing. I am so excited to get started. Hillary is taking the class with me and we are both working very hard. Lately there has been an extra amount of singing at my house. Hillary and I will sing for hours after work trying to improve our audition songs. She is usually brutally honest with me and I try and do the same thing for her. It helps alot when the people you sing for actually tell you what they really think.

The song that i've chosen to sing for auditions is called "Almost Lover" by A Fine Frenzy. It's a beautiful song but also very sad. There are several verses in the song that I can relate to and hopefully I can show that emotion in my performances. Songs always sound better when you feel or relate to the lyrics in my opinion. So, I will continue working on my voice and by the time the 29th roles around I am positive I'll be completely ready... Bring it on Simon.