The EX List

I realized something funny today... I've had 8 different boyfriends in the last 5 years!!! It might sound crazy and it probably is. I can hardly believe it myself but I thought it would be fun to make my EX list and share some experiences I've had with each.

1. Gavin Garr

I started dating Gavin when I was a freshman in highschool. I was 14 and he was 18. He didn't really sweep me off my feet at first but he made me laugh and we always found joy in conversations with eachother. I think I was drawn to Gavin because of his hidden sensitivity, unconditional love, and his family. Freshman year was a hard time for me and I felt very welcomed into the Garr family. They loved me and gave me comfort when no one else knew I was struggling. I regret lying to my mom about my relationship with Gavin ( I told her we were just friends ) but I don't regret the times I had with Gavin and his family. I truely loved Gavin while we were together and he was my best friend. One thing that really sets Gavin apart from anyone else is the ability he has to make anything enjoyable, whether it's going for a canyon drive in the dead of winter or just sitting on the couch and talking for hours about nothing. I still talk to Gavin and he is now in the Army. He will be going to Iraq in a few months.

2. Colton Carnahan

I met Colton when I lived with my sister Jenny in Arizona for the summer. I hung out with a group of people from church at the Warp Tour concert one day and that night hung out with them at a pool party. I was around Colton all day but I didn't notice him until that night at the pool party. Colton walked up to me, drying himself off with a towel and the conversation went something like this,

Colton: "What's up"

Me: "Who are you? Have you been with us all day?"

Colton: "Ya, but I don't blame you for not recognizing me...I look totally different without my shirt on."

Honestly, I don't think I've had a relationship as funny as the one I had with Colton. He made me laugh out loud every time I saw him. There were even a couple times when I think I peed. Anyways, after I moved to California we traveled back and forth to see eachother at least once or twice a month (romantic right?). Colton and I still talk and he is still making me laugh. He is working full time in Arizona and has had a couple girlfriends since me but I'm glad we've remained friends.

3. Golden Tawzer

This one was short but sweet. I met Golden while I was at my dad's in SLC on vacation. He came out to see me in California a couple weeks later and that was it, we were a couple. I moved to Utah shortly after we started dating and we had some good times. Probably the most memorable time I had with Golden was when we went to his brothers wedding in Idaho together. I stayed at his grandparents house for a couple days and took pictures for their family of the wedding. Golden and I had fun together but in the end, I was 5 or 6 years younger than him and that became a problem and prevented us from moving forward. He is happily married now so we don't talk. I wish him all the best!

4. Roger Ellis
No one knows alot about Roger because we only dated for 2 months...maybe less. I just hung out with him the summer before senior year and we went to a few movies and dinners. Roger is just my friend now and we still talk.



5. Chris Larsen
Ah, the infamous Christopher Larsen. I knew Chris through middle school and high school and had ALWAYS crushed over him. What I didn't know is he crushed on me too. We started dating during my senior year of high school and for a couple months it was perfection. On a lot of levels Chris and I related to eachother and enjoyed being together. We had the same interests and the same friends which made it easy to be around eachother all the time. I think our problems started when we both moved back to Logan and I depended on him more and more. I didn't have any family around so he became my primary focus. The mistakes were on both ends but I learned alot from this relationship. Chris and I don't talk but I know he is living in Arizona with his family.

6. Kevin Christensen

Kevin holds a very special place. He was my first boyfriend in 6th grade and we went off and on all through middle school and parts of high school (when I lived in Logan). It wasn't until senior prom when we reunited and became middle school/high school sweethearts again. Kevin is one of my best friends to this day and is a very positive, loving person. I went through some of the toughest times of my life with Kevin by my side and he has got to be one of the most patient people I know. I will always be grateful for the things Kevin has taught me, especially the ablity to forgive and learn from mistakes. He is living in Logan, getting ready to start another semester of college at USU and doing great.

7. Blake Bassett
I met Blake through his brother Cordell. We hit it off at first because we have the same taste in music, art, food, and movies. What we had was more of a fling than anything else but it was fun for a time. Blake and I don't talk but I work for his mom and with his brother so I know he is doing very well. The one thing I learned from Blake is that most really good-looking men are full of themselves and it makes them very unattractive...get my drift?

8. Johnny Vigil
Probably the most eccentric of the bunch but loads of fun. I wrote about Johnny in one of my first blogs and I actually moved in with him for about 2 weeks before our relationship ended in May. I met Johnny when I was 17 and living in SLC and we went on a few dates but didn't seriously start dating until January of 08'. Johnny is the most hard working, determined, tough person I know. He works for everything he has and every day makes big strides to be better than the day before. He is not shy about expressing himself at all and knows exactly what he wants in life. His direction and determination is something I've learned from and part of the reason I work so hard. Johnny and I are almost polar opposites but through me I think he softened up, and through him I know I became stronger. We still talk and see eachother alot and he is doing great... moving forward as always.

So, that's it! I've had some wonderful guys in my life...and some not-so-great guys but overall I've learned ALOT and don't regret meeting any of them. It's been fun going back through time and remembering some of the experiences I've had but I'm ready to move on and see what's in store next...hahaha